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Thursday, April 13th, 2006
10:08 am	spring 06 WOOWWWW Life has been crazzzzzzy lately. It is now April and its finally spring! The Vision has been playing shows and music non stop! shows about everyweekend sometimes multiple times..its even been extended onto shows happening on weekdays also...so its been non stop fun n games and I love it. We have been writing brand new music that has been blowing me awaayyyyyyy. Its fun having to play shows with this pop punk sound and then writing for the future next coming wich sounds soooooo different. It is totally a different direction and a GREAT change. Some Ideas and concepts I have are very futuristic.. future shows we will have some cool looking lights....an electronical guy with a keyboard to create visuals and add in effects to make it both loook/sound futuristic. From the looks of it I think what is forming is a concept album almost like a rock operah wich bands liek greenday,pink floyd, and The who did. If its not a concept album there will be a theme or a strong message....it deff won't be a cd with just a bunch of songs on it. With this week alone there is about 3-4 shows and the shows that have been recently happening have been some of the greatest shows ive played and I want to thank everyone whos been supporting us through this whole change n coming out to shows. Current Mood: rejuvenated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 18th, 2006
8:28 pm	So here I am after an all day practice session with This Vision. A day where we changed the whole sound drastically with the guitars and experiemented and tweaked the amps all day. After finding what we wanted we spent the next couple of hours creating a song...and not just any song but a song that changed everything...im not lying when I say this but this is deffinatly the best song I have EVER written and im so stoked about it im writing it here in this livejournal. I can honestly say we have found our own sound for the future we made birth to one song so far with a whole writing process for the future....oh no...we arent done playing shows and dying down in fact we have over 10 shows coming up all over the Island its on the myspace check it out! but yeah we deffinatly found our own sound that sounds like no other band I know. This song today gave me the chills..we totaly shifted genres and made this crazy melodic idk even knwo what it is..its so great. We have that song along with a handfull of ideas and we are going full speed on our time off to create the future...The Vision. This shit alreadys ounds liek its from the future and we achieved our goal because when we changed our name we wanted something different we wanted somethign that sounded like it was from the future almost like breaking out of the shell with pop punk and putting it to a whole new level, a whole enw sound, a whole new vibe a new aproach i can go on. Its very Ambient...indie...pop rock...melodic...heavy...soft...w/e u wanan call it it has all that but in our own eyes. So I thought Id share the excitemenet in the journal and to get everyone prepared for something special in the future! Current Mood: rejuvenated Current Music: The Beatles- A Day In The Life (Comment on this)
Monday, March 13th, 2006
9:38 pm	wellebop WOW its been a while since I updated...since february break and we have now entered the month of march and almsot halfway and a lot has happened... Lets finish up february break...It seems that the night before rob leaves I get the craziest experience of a lifetime and it was even craziar than the last time sneaking out 2a.m to Laguardia airport in the forst van...this time it was 2a.m all nighter mushroom experience and wow was it an experience to remember. Robs 3day party was absolutly crazy I had a lot of fun and now Rob is gone back to Hawaii and it sucks I miss the kid. He really does hold a lot of friendships together bringing people of all age groups and social groups together. The people that go to robs are the most chillest..most genuine nicest people you could ever meet. Everyones do down to earth and its such a greatvibe. That place can make the shittiest weekend great just because his house is a constant parties its a palce to escape from problems and reality thats how great the vibe is..but just as last time things have been dead around Bethpage once again. So here we are entering the month of March...C:A is recording at light speed right now and The Vision is blowing up just as the first listeners to the cd said it was going to do. Got to play with the junior varsity have some alcohal experiences with them haha and a lot more shows with crazy well known bands are on there way. I stopped smoking pot wich was known as a break but could be for good...who knows only time can tell and changes in life can tell. April is almost here wich marks a lot of things I can reflect on last year..all I know is when may comes I can look backa year ago and be like wow I accomplished a lot this year. If I rewind to last may wow...was it a change in life..last may was liek the recovery period for me the transition period from my life before to my life today..going from a 3 year relationship to like an animal that broke free from the zoo and can roam anywhere it wants to go. Last may my eyes opened so much and I can remember one night after the craziest show walking in the street with friends and screaming WOW IM FREE! I NEVER FELT THIS FREE IN MY LIFE...and the whole transition period got me to write the cd "Chapters Of Life" because of my whole new perspective..I felt like I was in one phase and completly went into a new chapter of life...doing new things,having new views,experiencing thigns ive neevr experienced before and it totally blew me away. Because I wrote that cd I was into different things (thing people shouldnt be into) and it opened up my mind into so many differnt ways to life and everything. Because of that I started getting into different music and maturing musically and finding out things about myself I couldnt even imagine..without last may I wouldnt be where I am today...without last may there wouldnt be "The Vision" and my whole plan to change that band musicaly in the future and there wouldnt be no prophecy for this band. Its crazy how one chapter into another...one situation...one little thing can totaly change ur life open ur eyes and bring you down a path youll never forget. So in conclusion by the "chapters of life e.p" :-) p.s I have bronchtis and my doctor wants me to take steroids...apaprently steroids open the bronchial tubes...Im ganan get buff hahah Current Mood: sick Current Music: Cartel (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
1:46 am	So its 1:46 in the morning right now and I must say I am so stoked to play this show today and release our cd to everyone. As you KNow we created this Cd As the band Wind Up Toy...witten and recorded it last spring/summer with different members and now we have gained new members lossed some....lost battles and went through hardtimes and we are back as " The Vision"...I know your thinking shit why does that name not sound pop punk...well its not supposed to be...we are getting people ready for the future of this band..so if you get a cd that says The Vision on it don't be suprised its still us. So I think everyone should get out of there homes tomorow bring 3 cans of food to the venue we are playing out and help the homeless and hunger on L.I its for a cause and not only will you feel good about yourself but you can see a show and have an awsome night so come on by and pick up a copy of " Chapters Of lIfe" E.p tomorow at... frances de chantal church on wantagh ave. 3 cans of food to get in!$5 for the new chapters of life ep! More info is on Myspace...just go to www.myspace.com/winduptoy and you can find all information about the show. Also take a listen to our 2 new songs we released for everyone to hear. If everyone can ahve an open mind for this cd and really think about the things that I went through this past year and try to see how it relates to your life in anyway then you truely found the message that I want you all to know. So COme to the show and lets rock out tomorow! Current Mood: working Current Music: As Tall As Lions (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 19th, 2006
11:55 pm	The Vision So whats been going on in the world of wind up toy? well weve been back as you all know and we have been very very busy. We went into nicks studio and added some final touches on the cd and all in all its the best thing weve ever done it sounds great and its not like old wind up toy and its something you deff want to hear. This cd will be released THIS FRIDAY!! February 24th thats right the magical day the adress is 1309 Wantagh Ave, wantagh, NY 11793 and all you have to do is bring 3 cans of food to get in for admission THATS RIGHT YOU DONT NEED TO PAY TO GET IN!:-o there will be a bunch of bands check the myspace for more details. Unfortunatly we won't be coming back as "Wind Up Toy" its come to the point where we had to change the name. The new name for the band...what we are called is " The Vision" and you will all learn why within a year or so. 1 thing I can explain myself is the next cd's sound is going to be suprising...and the band name itself is going to fit the music style as well. Woops did you hear to much? so everyone who is complaining that The Vision doesnt sound to punk or pop punk or emo enough well who said we are going to be emo or punk? we might be something else...:-o...w/e it is it is going to be musically orgasmic to the ears. As for now...this friday is your chance to pick up our new E.p " The Chapters Of Life" and once you pick it up Barbra streisand will give trolls oral and it will be a beautiful day! Untill then...I'll see you at the show! -Tom Current Mood: determined Current Music: Angels And Airwaves- Good Day (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 29th, 2006
10:08 pm	After 4 months of Wind up Toy breaking up...being isolated from eachother...and enough thinking we are now actually back and better than ever. I would like to thank Asian Chris who talked so much sense into my head and made it all clear for me. For giving me that extra push to make this possible again. You heard it...and yes its true we are back. Since we are back theres going to be some new rules for the future....When we come back we are going to change our name..we no longer will be Wind Up Toy anymore....Instead we will come back with an awsome powerful name. Second We have new people in the band. Chris Blatchley Our Bassist is no longer in the band anymore due to personal reasons. As a band we would like to thank chris for all the work hes put into this band, for all these years of helping us make music, and for helping us ge where we are today. In addittion to me and danny we added Sam trestman from c:a/Valora as bassist and Our good friend Jerry Meehan as Rythm Guitar. When we came back after 4 months and I saw danny play drums I was absolutly blown away by how much he improved and how awsome this kid got in a matter of 4 months. Everything sounds more powerful than ever and I can actually say to myself FUCK we sound like a real band! We even have some new song ideas on where we want this band to go and its sounding so different than what the new cd is going to be. All in all a lot of great stuff is coming back. Everything happens for a reason...and I think this whoel hiatus and breaking up thing was meant to happen....to make us come back as the band we are about to be.. Current Mood: determined Current Music: Dark Side OF The Moon (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 15th, 2006
10:17 am	I need to pick myself back up. Im falling deeper it feels like. Im alone..and when your alone you think a lot. Thinking is what leads you into the different directions of life. I haven't gone anywhere really in any direction. If anything Ive been in the same spot since july/august. I need to get out and do things experience shit be happy. I need a girlfriend...I need someone who understands me who can help sort of guide me you know. I know once I find someone I'll know who I am. As for now I don't know who I am. The world is basicaly frames of confusion to me now. Im so lost that im trying to find myself but im nowhere to be found. Every now and then i get like flashbacks from the past wich bothers me. Whats the point of the past when life just keeps on going foward. So anyways yeah its about 2 weeks into the new year and I need to do something... p.s. An amazing poem I found on the wall at rob frosts house. I do my thing, And you do your thing. I am not in this world To live up to your expectations, And you are not in this world To live up to mine. You are you and I am I, And if by chance we find Each other, it's beautiful. Current Mood: lonely (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 5th, 2006
9:06 pm	My Theory... I did something that has now change my life forever...my perspectives...and just my general feelings of everything. I regret it so much. It is not me and because of it I have changed in some positive and negatives. On a side note from that I REALLY WANAN POST SOMETHING. Today I came up with a theory that shocked many people..even science teachers. Because my mind has opened up so much it came to me today In chemistry. Using philosophy information I learned from a while ago....and what we studied today in Chemistry (Carbon-12 and Carbon-14 used for finding age of fossils,makes up elements in our body,and is a part of the atmosphere). Anyway here is the theory i came up with... " Humans have Carbon-12(C-12) and Carbon-14(C-14), a ratio that remains the same when we are alive. That must mean we have some form of energy in us. If C-12 and C-14 are unbalanced when we die that means energy is released. Every Human has a certain amount of energy when we are alive. But when we die this energy escapes and is not found...Where does this energy go? is C-12 and c-14 responsible for this....does this mean theres proof we have spirits? Even scientists agree that this energy is a mystery...so what is the truth?" Don't call me crazy because this is just an idea and it is a true idea. Scientists actually have proven that we have energy and when we die this energy is released. Since C-12 and C-14 are part of the atmosphere you would think that this enerdy is restored back into the atmosphere. WRONG! So many people die each second...if it was restored into the atmosphere...that must mean we can detect a changing level of C-12 and C-14 in the atmosphere. Since there isn't a changing level where does this energy really go? Current Mood: Enlightened Current Music: The Transplants (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 1st, 2006
12:06 pm	I hope this year will be better than the last one....but just experiencing this new year already...well...it fucking sucks. I had the worst new years eve or new years w/e the fuck you wanna call it. I was planning on having people over..partying n shit....and planning to do this 1 thing that ive been planning on doing since the summer wich is ha;f of fukn 2005 i thought about it. Turns out that one thing got fucked over. So yeah I was pretty bummed yesturday when i found that out. Then i find out I have a lung infection and gland infection and shit. My 2nd cuz is in the hospital getting worse and worse....no ones telling me anythign but Im pretty sure its a matter of time by the way they put it. So yeah I waited n waited for people to come..jerry shows up....sic stops by for 30 min and steve stops by. Well jerry leaves out of nowhere without saying goodbye then goes home n says hes sick...meanwhile I told like 6 other people to come when fucking no one shows up at all. Then maybe about an hour after the ball drops im in the house by myself. I fucking go to sleep at 2a.m while everyones out having the greatest fukn time. In conclusion this fuckign new years sucked and it really comes to show how I have NOOOOOO FRIENDS. I really don't ...I think about it and I really am just a waste of space on this fucking planet. If I were to die today everyone would probably be like " well fucking tom died we have another reason to party"...or theyd be like "who died!..o tom...o well" and go about there fucking buisness. I look at last years new years I had the best new years of my life really it was absolutly perfect...I had a shitload of people downhere...the tom spartinos show...Drunk santa...everyone was laughing and shit...stayed up all night with people and had the greatest time. Then after that perfect new year that whole year turned to shit. So maybe if I have the shittiest new year then in return my year will be great HAAAHAHHAHHAA liek that will fucking happen. Comment if you care...OOO THATS RIGHT NO ONE CARES BECAUSE I HAVE NO FRIENDS!! Current Mood: depressed/psycotic/down Current Music: No music (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 19th, 2005
4:55 pm	ITS HAPPENED FINALLY! After months and months of pre production Code Adrenaline has made its way into the studio to record the new cd.(By the way if you didn't know Im making this a studio entry).Yeah so wow we have made it to studio 1 out of the 2 studios we are recording and it was a very productive day. Lets start off with us being late 20 minutes haha. We show up and find out theres a screw rattling around in the snare drum..we take the drum skin off and the metal and skin disconect...between all that it took us 2 hours into the session untill we finally started laying down the drum tracks for the first couple of songs. All in all we completed about 9 songs of drums out of 12 and we'll probably redo some of the 9. This cd is going to be so diverse. With the songs on this new cd I can really see the emotion and musical taste each band member brings to the table. I mean its rediculous ...you can have a soft ballad with pianos and acoustic thats really melodic to like the craziest heavy hardcore sounding songs. I can't wait to actually here them recorded and sounding up to the best potential. This is a Cd you kids are ganan wanna crank up to 10 and play the whole thing through. With some of the songs you'll notice the c:a sound is all there and then theres the songs that are totally out there and you wouldnt believe that we did something like that. Most of All I can't wait to see the look on the peoples faces when they hear the songs haha but I think its a good thing because we aren't afraid to explore a different realm of music and were not afraid to express how we feel. Keep an eye out on the C:A Myspace because every once in a while you'll see a new in the studio video. Untill Next time- Thomas Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: Steely Dan (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 7th, 2005
6:04 pm	Hey there to the people that stick around and actually read the events of my life! Im Tom! well you probably already knew that :-D Im in a band called Code:adrenaline and we are in the pre production process of making a whole new album :-O! We got roughly around 8 or 9 songs planned out for the 12 song cd we want to release in the upcoming future. Songs are coming out great and its such a departure from the last cd. Some of the influences we are using on this record blow me away because they have nothing to do at all with the pop punk/emo genre or music. Within the month of december we will be writing and finishing up the songs that are going to be on the cd. Recording will probably start in january. Whats cool about this is its my first time being part of a full length album. Throught the years of being in a band ive only worked on E.p's so its cool to do a whole cd. Were also going to record this cd in 2 Different studios and take as long as we want at the second one. A lot of videos will be taken in the studio and will be on the dvd tht will prob come out in the future. Im soo stoked because one band that im in has came out of the recording process n is starting up again and the other band is going into record so its like I get a taste of both sides. Well time for me to meditate to fat moms fucking there dogs on dvd.Comment Current Mood: content Current Music: The band "Yes" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 26th, 2005
9:40 am	You know I look back to last month when I was going through a crazy phase feeling down,having flashbacks and stuff. Well here I am a month later and feeling great. I thought by now Id be out of my mind even more down than I was before..not at all. If anything this season so far is feelin the most unique out of all the fall/winters ive experienced here in this town of bethpage. I mean realy not much crazy is going on everythign is like mellowed out...no worrys..nothing to be scared of....nothing to be down about..im just going with the flow and seeing friends and chiling out. I think this year I learned a lot of things. One of them is I leanred not to be so uptight about things. I got my report card yesturday and it wasn't even as bad as I thought...My paycheck just came in and I have about 150 coming into my pocket. Its a saturday morning and I might go into the city with some friends...and my hopes are building up...that soon enough I'll have an amazing gf soon...if not now..the future so why worry? Aside from that thanksgiving was cool...worked that day...got to see come family...toked before the dinner so I enjoyed it mucho. Ive been going to Rob Frosts house a lot. That place gets a lot of stuff off my mind and traps me in the reality of last spring. A lot of good laughs n tokes there with friends. Ive been having the pullout bed out all the tiem in my basement now...haha I sleep there and chill there. Its like im barely online anymore since Ive been chilling on it. well its time for me to go ppick up 150 bucks :-) later kiddos Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Pink Floyd- Stoned Alone (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 19th, 2005
11:07 am	Its 11:03 in the morning and yesturday was...wow unbelievably awsome. I cut 9th period yesturday..school was such a drag and 9th period I had music theory so i decided fuck that Im going to see Rob Frost! Drove over to his house and saw him for the first time in almost 5 months! it was awosome we talked and smoked crystals while evryone was still in school. Evan and peopel came over smoked even more...then me and rob got our own and a bunch of people came over. The whole basement al night was a big smokey fog or filled with drunk kids haha. I was messed up from like 2pm till I went to sleep no joke. It was sooo goood being in robs room again with rob and peopel in it. It really made me feel complete again...like I felt liek it was spring. What an amazing time I had yesturday.It was cool to see so many people I know so many friends and stuff. It really is true when I said Rob brings a lot of friendships together and is powerful like that..because some people I haven't talked to in months I got to talk to again and chill with. All I know is for most of the winter Im goign to be in robs basement again haha just Like I was last spring! im just so happy you know this is the beggining of like good time...more people are ganna be hanging out...new friendships...great times...and nights I wont' forget. Cheers to Rob and coming home! p/s I got a ill show Im playing tonight come! Current Mood: high Current Music: The Aquabats, The Space, Pink Floyd (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
2:59 pm	Its the middle of the week and this week has been for the most part such a drag. Sunday I drove out to deer park on the L>I>E go me haha and back for the hell of it cuz there was nothing else to do since I randomly woke up at like 8 in the morning. Monday was the year aniversary of the crash n shit. Me n diana walked to her house after school n met up with katie, John,JJ,tom, and ryan. Went to the platform had some sour diesal n shit...saw cops and threw everything down...john later found it and we did a victory lap haha. Yesturday was the 1 year aniversary since claudette died. I can't believe its been 1 year since everything has happened. I'll never forget a year ago when jerry told me.. and chris kuster rang my doorbell saying there was a huge crash n shit. Just seeing the car there and being so scared for my classmates in the car was insane..I remember I couldn't sleep the night of last year cuz it was so unreal of what happened. Anyway so yesturday was sams bday also we had our little party haha n then jana ame over n I chilled with her for the rest of the night. So here we are today it is Wed..the middle of this week and I have work tonight:-( can't stand work wow...Ive never experienced 3-4 hours going that slow. W/e I need money badly...my last check was 32 dollars since they fucked up my hours and I was left with 3 dollars in my wallet...but I guess getting lunch money and not using it to buy food has now put 15 bucks in my wallet! I have to wait till next sunday for my next paycheck wich will be a shitload! I REALLY GOTTA SELL SHIT!!! Im sellign a skateboard and 2 amps tht i wann get rid of because all they do is sit here N i never use them n they are all in good condition I promise lol..its just I haven't skated in a while and I don't play on little amps anymore and I really need some cash because this 15 bucks will prob be gone by this weekend. I don't think anyone can fucking spend 15 dollars in 2 weeks unless your a loser who hangs out at 7eleven buying candy bars for 2 weeks or something. So yeah...work tonight....work tomorow fucking ahhh just bring friday already!! ROB FORST COMES BACK IN 24 fuckign hours!!! Hes throwing a HUGE party on friday! Can't wait I miss that kid and his fucking ill basement. Rob held together a lot of friendships..when he left a lot of friendships changed and died...and a lot of people were lost. o its really good hes coming back. I can't wait to bring back the old times n shit. ...2 more times of work..2 more times of school = THE RETURN OF JESUS! Current Mood: uncomfortable Current Music: nothing (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 13th, 2005
8:25 am	WOw...well yesturday had to be one of the wierdest/craziest days. Yesturday there was a group reunion. I think I saw everyone that we used to hang out with maybe besides 1 but its alright like BASICALLY EVERYONE was there . It had to be one of the wierdest things for me. I mean here I am I live in the same basement for a while the same basment where jundreds of memories took place....it hasnt changed since...I mean its exactly where everyone left off.. to see those same people sit in my basement n stuff it was really something. I also remember going outside to eat pizzas in the front with everyone like we usd to and just hang out with porn in my basement....to jamming to everything. I mean while this was going on it really did hit me. My lifestyle now....my life in general are different now. And when I look back and looked at what was goin on last night it got me to think it really is a shame that we don't hang like that anymore. I mean I guess deep down I really did miss everyone. All it took was a reunion like that and a night of dreams retracing memories to realize that. I mean you go about you can go about your daily life and have fun and stuff but theres nothing like the "group" that makes gives you that warm feeling inside and makes you feel everything is going to be alright. I remember sitting in my basement at one moment and feeling like I was exactly back in time 2 or 3 years ago and I was seriously there. Its the wierdest vibes ever. N just last month I was talking about those flashbacks. I think If I saw everyone in my basement n like I mean everyone I probably would of thought I smoked weed laced with like pcp or something. Later on in the party Alyssa,katie and others came. This part of the reunion felt like the future....not the future but more like the present. I was there with some of the greatest people burnin and we just had the chillest time talking laughing joking..evenback at my house it just felt great you know...it was like I was there with some of the people from the "group" but it was supposed to be like this. As if this is what the "present" group would have been..it felt like weve hung out 380940932893 times before that everyday n it was normal or something. After that me n katie diana n tonyann drove aroudn the streets. I think that was the "Back to reality" moment because I was me who I am now...Living my new lifestyle...living my new life. I know theres a bunch of people who don't like the way I am now...n theres some peoepl Ive gained friends for being who I am now...but this is who I am now. If you don't like it then tuff theres nothing you can do about it. If you wana be my friend then be my friend but dont bitch about it. Im happy now...thats all that matters im not living in pain anymore. Im free...happy..and thats what you shuold be in life. If your ganna have a problem with it then I don't think your my real friend. Before I rap this whole entry up. 3 MORE DAYS! till Rob Frost comes back from Hawai. Mad partys and fun at his house for the future! BRINGING BACK THE OLD TIMES! Current Mood: touched Current Music: Blink 182 (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 5th, 2005
10:51 am	WUDDUP KID! Everything has been exciting lately. It seems like after school I find myself with katie and Diana...whether its smokin a blunt with laquan katie n diana at the sump or library park or just chillen at the 3rd booth. Halloween was ill! Went to the sump with katie right after school to experience the "juicy fruit". Then trick or treated like crazy. I remember that night me diana katie..justin and sam were burnin by jfk where the trees are... we had 3 cop cars on our ass searchin for us. OOO YEAH!!! THE TALENT SHOW! The talent show was a lot of fun. I thought we did good everythign sounded great and we had a lot of energy. We placed 4th :-( almost fucking placed ...I at least think we should of placed somewhere. Everyone said it to...but I guess when you have a bunch of black judges and peeps from a station who don't really play rock...A rapper gets first but its all good. Everyone who placed was awsome. hmm speaking of cops before...I remember a week and 2 days ago something crazy happened....read the paragraph below haha Fukn snuck out of my house 11:30 on a school night and Jamie (steve brittons sister) and joe (my dealer/jamies bf) picked me up and we went to the train station parking lot. We back up by the back area where the fence is. Joe was cleaning his bowl and about to roll up a blunt when a cop popped out of nowhere and shined the spot light on us. While joe was cramming shit in and hiding stuff the cop was walking over...when he got to us he asked for all of our id's. He said "why are you parked right next to this car behind the fence...its suspicious". Jamie was talkin how she needed to phone someone or something..." the cop goes "I bet you guys have posession" ( a week ago he was suspicious for posession also with the same car) in the car everyone get out...while he said that he had the hand cuffs ready...my thoughts were like " shit Im goin to jail"...but jamie and joe talked the cop out of it saying all theseescuses how we need to give this cd to our friend...this is where we always meet etc. the cop was like alright well it just looked suspicuous this is where I arrested people for smoking marijuana..and then the cop left.we stalled at the spot for about 10 min cuz we knew the cop was still there parked somewhere else hiding. When we pulled out he was still there watching us...so we drove away..drove aroudn the plainview streets n enjoyed what we were supposed to do.......crazy experience huh?...COMMENT Current Mood: mellow Current Music: Damien Marley- Welcome to jam rock (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, October 24th, 2005
6:10 pm	AH FUCKIN FLASHBACKS I HATE YOU SO MUCH@7z3288023 HOLY FUKN SHIT THIS BLOWS! it feels liek winter!!! ever since it started raining liek that whole week its felt like winter. I can't stand it! Its wierd being in my basement and stuff when its that winter feeling. I get these flashbacks..I get all these vibes I felt like a year ago or 2 N i start freakin out. Its absolutly insane. Liek i dead on feel like myself now went back in time a year ago. Didn't I already post somethign liek this? well its happening again. Idk How im gana last winter. I hate the cold n wow. I also hate how everyone has a fucking boyfriend or girlfriend and there all happy enjoying themselves inside there fukn houses watching movies all day or cuddlign udner blankets or some shit. I wanan go to there houses n bomb them all lol its so depresing seeing them. I remember when I used to be one of those people who were always happy and fuckign omg feeling. Its like a heroin addict on heroin for fucking months straight. Except when shit hits the fan its liek starving a heroina ddict from heeroin....thats why sometimes when im sad about it I'll say to myself its not worth it.(I love my drug analogys lol) Another factor is when im sitting in my basement and my basement looks the same way its been since i moved here. When there was "the group" its still the fuckin same thing. So I decided Im ganan change this whole basement up! Im ganan extend the couch along the wall to the kithen..put the t.v where the radio is now n move the comp hopefully. That will deff give off new vibes. I also came to the conclusion that this is going to be the last boring winter of our lives. Why? because by next winter we'll be fuckin driving. we can go anywhere cuz we have a car so it keeps everythign interesting. Also then I thought wow Rob frost is coming back so that means mad partys and fun times. Aside from all the complaining... This weekend was mad fun, I played a Show at OLM in front of so many people. We played for an hour and 30 minutes and everyone was going nuts. I felt liek true rockstar it was ill. Saturday Supposed to play show...ended up not. Jana came over ...we hung out at night with people..blazed...we had some fun;-)...passed out form smokin to much..woke up had soem more fun at 3am;-)...and woke up n had some more fun;-)...i think we had a lot of "fun" haha. Yesturday was just a chill day. Work wasn't bad. Today blazed like 9823290 times sobered up n realized im in my basement having fucking bad flashbacks....fukn comment... Current Mood: numb Current Music: Third Eye Blind- Can't Get Away (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
7:28 pm	Whoa shit..I haven't done these thigns probably since fuckign 8th grade. So i saw one in a livejournal and was like shit son I gotta do this. So I stole this from someone cuz im such a horrible person :-0...but that person I stole it from is mad cooolllll...so check this out.. FIRSTS: 1.First best friend: Andrew 2.First car: Uh prob ganan be a ford explorer 3.First real kiss: haha I was 5 with this girl carrisa :-X 4.First break-up: 5th grade 5.First screen name: prob somethign like Nookie559 6.First self-purchased album: haha hmm Bustah Ryhmes or Blink 182 back in 1995 7.First funeral: My grabdpas :-( 9.First Piercing: probably 7th Grade or 8th 10.First credit card: shit I don't even have a first credit card? 12.First enemy: DONT REMEMEBR 13.First big trip: Aruba 14.First music you remember hearing in your house: I love Lucy haha LASTS: 1.Last cigarrete: last week? 2.Last car ride: Me driving home from hollywood video 3.Last good cry: a while ago 4.Last library book checked out: haha uhm kinda stole this porno kind of thing in the 18+ section (not in bpage) 5.Last movie seen in theatres: wow I can't remember 6.Last beverage drank: vitamin water 7.Last food consumed: apple pie :-) 8.Last crush: :-X 9.Last phone call made by you: uh today when I was sick I called a gynocologist and said im bleeding heavily out of my clitoris :-X 10.Last time showered: today 11.Last shoes worn: vans 12.Last item bought: uhm 1/8th of an oz of weed lol 13.Last annoyance: My fucking boner woudnt go down! 14.Last time wanting to die: probably last year 15.Last time scolded: wtf is scolded? RELATIONSHIPS: 1.Who are your best friends?: No idea I have lots of great friends:-) 2.Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: I wish :-( FASHION/STUFF: 1.Where is your favorite place to shop?: Find me a good smoke shop...or guitar Center is always sweet 2.Any tattoos or piercing?: Piercing..left ear.. SPECIFICS: 1.Do you do drugs?: I dont do drugs just weed 2.What kind of shampoo do you use?: my jizz :-X 3.What are you most scared of?: idk 4.What are you listening to right now?:listenin to some Dre 5.Where do you want to get married?: On the beach 6.How many buddies are online?: 3+2+14+28+26+94..Theres more than 1 group lol 7.What would you change about yourself?: hmm id like to shave my head...consume large amouts of foods untill I get up to a weight where im on the fukn news because Im so fat I can't even get out of m house hahaha FAVORITES: 1.Color: Blue and orange 2.Food: Mexican 3.Girls Names: Jenna jameson 4.Boys Names: idk 5.Subjects in school: any class that doesn't need that much brain activity lol 6.Animals: A fuckin parrot haha those things are so funny stoned 7.Sports: Basketball 8.Perfume: I like that vanilla shit that a lot of girls wear or anything like sweet smelling 9.Cologne: Shit I got a lot of favs HAVE YOU EVER? 1.Given anyone a bath?: nope 2.Smoked? Hell yea WEED 3.Bungee jumped?: fuck yeah 4.Made yourself throw up?: Yea I pulled a Steve-O 5.Skinny dipped?: yeah 6.Been in love?: Yeah 7.Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: when I was in p.s 221 8.Pictured your crush naked?: Fuck yea.. 9.Seen your crush naked?: yeah 10.Cried when someone died?: yeah 11.Lied?: yea :-/ never good to lie 12.Fallen for your best friend?: nope 13.Been rejected?: yea... 14.Rejected someone?: mhm 15.Used someone?: when I was a dick.. 16.Done something you regret?: Yea CURRENT: 1.Clothes?: pj's..tshirt..socks n vans 2.Music?: dre 3.Make-up?: nope 4.Annoyance?: im kinda sick 5.Smell?: smells like a pina coloda dutch 6.Favorite artist?: Third Eye Blind 7.Desktop picture?: Black marijuana leaf with this psychadelic colorful tie die background 8.Book your reading?: nope 9.Cd in player?: ipod bitch 10.Dvd in player? How High LAST PERSON: 1.You touched?: I haven't touched a fucking human in days because ive been sick! 2.Hugged?: Kinda sad don't even remember the last person I hugged 3.You imed?: jerry ARE YOU: 1.Understanding?: yes 2.Open-minded?: yes 3.Arrogant?: once in a while 4.Insecure?: no 5.Interesting?: yea I have a fucked up mind 6.Hungry? nah 7.Smart?: I think im smart but lazy 8.Moody?: Yeah..deprive me from smokin a blunt for a couple of days n you'll see how moody I'll get haha 9.Hardworking?: at what? 10.Organized?: not at all 11.Healthy?: prob not 12.Shy?: depends what mood Im in 13.Attractive?: I wouldnt consider myself 14.Bored easily?: sometimes 15.Responsible?: fuck 16.Obsessed?: with what? 17.Angry?: not at the moment 18.Sad?: no 19.Disapointed?: sometimes 20.Happy?: yea 21.Hyper?: no 22.Trusting?: I am if I like you..if I dont like you then nope 23.Talkative?: pretty much 24.Legal?: I am illegal WHO DO YOU WANNA: 1.Kill?: the peopel that come to boston market and bust my balls 2.Slap?: jerry because hes fun to fuck with 3.Get high with?: HELL YEA MY 29 YEAR OLD CUZ MIKE! 4.Look like?: I dont wanan look like anyone.. 5.Talk to offline?: my friends 6.Talk to online?: pornstars RANDOM: 1.In the morning i am: pissed off 2.All you need is: Sex drugs and rock and roll!!! 3.Love is: The best and worst thign that ever happend to me 4.I dream about: i dont remember my dreams PERSON YOU WANT TO BE WITH?: :-X Current Mood: mellow Current Music: Dr. Dre- I just wanan fuck you (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 13th, 2005
11:52 am	This rain I must say is depressing...can even bring me back to like flashbacks fo the past (because it feels like winter) but that doesn't stop me from partying. Things have been cool lately. Ive been chillen with katie more lately...meeting random new friends all the time...and not knowing what to expect next. Sometimes I can have the shittiest day and be liek "fuck this day sucks"...but somethign creeps along my ass and boom all of a sudden ill find myself at some party with like 100 people...or like standing out in the rain and amking an adventure out of everything and going to the 3rd booth....maybe it will be a shitty day and all of a sudden ill find myself in the sump with friends just like the old days. HAHA or maybe i'll go from a boring night chilling with people in ym basement like I ALWAYS USED TO DO..to chilling at some guys house with rap music blasting and 5 blunts going around. Everything lately seems like a suprise...haha..its basicaly wow shitty day to feeling kinda down....to the next second laughing and smiling cuz im having so much fun...wierd?...i think so haha. So yea been partying it up...shows coming up with wind up toy that im looking foward to. Halloweens coming up..kinda xcited for that..I guess you can sa the only thing bad is the rain. Probably because such strange things are happening to me. Its liek im having flashbacks or something. I feel like as if the way I am now...you know the person I am the "new me" went back in time like a year or 2 ago and is just living it again. Like as If I feel out of place. Its pretty wierd. Like honestly I feel like im back to the time when everyone was in the "group" thing but im so lost because im who I am now. I think thats the reason because its raining...getting darker earliar and its cold and depressing. Kind of brings me back to my previous winters because obv if ur stuck in the house n its kinda cool out n raining n depressing and it it kind of sounds like winter...minus the raining. Well thats about it...before I go im going to leave you with this poem or liek little paragraph thingie I found in someones profile that I kinda relate to...here it is.. I'm not addicted to the THC, which makes me laugh. Nor the stems and seeds, which make me choke. Nor the social gatherings around a joint(though it is great). Nor the fun I've had doing every day things under the influence. I am addicted to the new me.I am addicted to my own inner peace. I love the fact that I have no urge to raise my fist to even the worst of my enemies. I wish everyone could feel the way I do with or without weed. I am a drug addict and I am proud and grateful to God for showing me the way to heal myself. Current Mood: Burnt Current Music: Dr. Dre- The watcher (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 6th, 2005
3:28 pm	Well its been a while since ive updated..ive been mad happy! Well lets see. If anythign this area has been a little big ghetto lately. With gang shit goin down at the park n shit. Ive also met this guy sean with katie hsi nicknames "white devil" he grew up in the hood. First night I went there we baked his house out with 5 blunts and his parrot was whakce dout of its mind. This guys 23 and smokes kids out all the time. So because of chillin with these people it brings me back to the old days in queens so my music horizon has brought its way back to rap so ive been listenin to mad rap. Ive played some shwos with wind up toy C;a its all been fun. Everyday holds a new story. But hey as long as im happy right? like im super happy lately everythings been good. I went apple picking with sam last weekend that was fun. So many things have been going on I can't even store all the info in m mind haha. Fall is here wich SUCKS! I miss the spring/summer. I look into the future n se my fall as a blur with a lot of shows haha. Winter is coming hwo depressing. I hope liek time flies by n soon before I know it the school year is almost gone. FROST IS COMING BACK SOON! thats right kids November 16th he'll be back. When frost left a lot of thigns fell apart. Frost held many friendships together. Once he was gone all hell broke loose and thigns changed. I hope thigns get good again. Well wow what a rambling random post I made. peace. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Dr. Dre- Chronic (Comment on this)